I was walking for so long time. And I am exhausted. I felt like
I was walking for a hell lot of time. Maybe for a whole day...I was so lost and
I didn’t even notice the sun has set and the darkness has spread around me. I
decided to take some rest,
I lay down flat on ground facing the sky and the stars...
I wonder, where am I?...where am I going to...I was blank...as
the questions inside me grew , so do the stars above...the twinkling shinnies
now are gaining shapes. Some round some square. Some pointed ....and they
started falling down...on me...
Oooh...It hurts. Stars which started to pour down as pebbles is
hurting me badly...more and more are falling down...some hit my chest some on
my face. My body ached so badly. Nose started to swell and bleed. The pebbles
are still falling down on me...and its size is growing by time. Suddenly a very
big one fall down right on I and ...........I woke up...
Again that got damn! Same dream.
The shower was so cold....and the pain caused by the pebbles
hitting my body was still there...I wonder, weather the pebbles were real or not.
Which just vanished when I woke up? But was really falling down and hurting
me...I checked touching my nose tip...the tint of blood was still
there....bloody dream. I hate u...
I don’t even remember when I started seeing this dream ....which
comes and wake me up. Leaves the pain and blood tint. I wonder when.....
And it became familiar too, like your mobile alarm tune...which
wakes you up everyday
...initially. I used to think about it a lot...why was I running.
Why was I alone...why the stars falling down...And right on me...why why? I
used to bug my days with those why’s....then slowly it became clear....my exhaustion.
The stars. The pebbles .the pain. Everything turned live through life...
Each pebble which was a beautiful twinkling star once. Which
came down and hurt me...now I can relate to a face, or a thing ....or I can say
like, life has turned every stars into pebbles that hurts....
Friends, who took me to their heart, given their soul and flesh
for me, I weighed job and career against became sharp, aching pebbles from shiny,
glittering stars.
How tender was her love, and now. It’s smothering me the most.
The rock, the biggest one, which woke me up. I can see, it’s her. It’s her love.
It’s the one going to hurt me the most.Still remember her last words “I lost
someone who used me, choose money over me, but you, you lose the person who
weighed you more than her life, her dreams and her family. I will think about
you with a smile but you, only with Regrets and dumped in disappointment”.
Regrets, the pebbles. Remorse, more pebbles, disappointment even more pebbles.
Regrets, the pebbles. Remorse, more pebbles, disappointment even more pebbles.
